Finances and food are big sources of our motivation towards inventive self-sufficiency, but there is one more reason–our future. We are planning a family business around our homefarm and that directs much of our thinking and choices also. Learning as we go along has shown to be a long and hard way of getting there.
After receiving business advice and mentoring, we’re planning on my taking an organic horticulture course on the mainland. It’s a year-long course with full scholarship beginning mid February 2015. I’ll only return home about once a month for a day or two. It’s been our plan for most of this year, but suddenly as it becomes nearer than far, as the time inches closer, my feelings of excitement are changing to anxiety and nervousness. How can I leave Johnny and the children? I will miss birthdays, bed times, recitals, swim lessons, date nights…
At a time of year when I am usually full of energy, instead I feel over emotional and tired. The excitement will return and I have no doubts in this great opportunity. But for today I could use some encouragement.
Tomorrow morning we leave for several days, off to the mainland for the children’s first Christmas trip to the city. I am trying to focus on this and enjoy these moments and am hopeful to return with a fresh perspective and renewed energy.