Today was one of those days. Several things didn’t go as planned or expected and we were left feeling a bit out of sorts. Johnny and I discussed, found a bright side to each one, and moved forward. We decided to venture off to where our goats were grazing and collect the newest addition and it’s mum, the birth being just a few hours before. Rugged as they are, the weather has been cold with wintry showers and we wanted to bring them closer to the house.
Walking to the goats–flat, but not smooth so mind your step. A bit of rainbow in the far left skyline.
The goat’s gather to greet us in a picture perfect line-up.
The baby was not looking good when we arrived. Weak and listless. It’s not the first time we’ve seen this happen. And despite our best efforts we have never managed to nurse an unwell kid back to full recovery. Almost. Nearly. Even had one become so well as to begin frollicking about in the front garden, but it wasn’t lasting. Sometimes they are born well, other times not. Bella had a perfectly healthy kid a year ago.
We realized we didn’t even look to see if this kid was male or female. It didn’t matter. Johnny dried it off, milked Bella, and fed it. I wrapped it in my jacket and arms for warmth and began massaging it. Johnny grabbed Bella and we headed back home. My heart broke as it went limp and died in my arms. I was really feeling sadness for Bella. She didn’t know yet, and was continuing to follow as I bent down and let her have a scent of her baby. We laid it for Bella to see. She licked it and, probably knowing, laid down beside it. I went in the house straightaway and Johnny took care to tie Bella near her shelter and bury the baby. Bella will be okay, enjoying fresh cut ivy and an old duck house shelter.
Joy fills most of our time and we choose to focus on the positives– Days like this are few and far between. The weather is predicted to dramatically improve tomorrow. And we have an abundant supply of fresh goats milk for the next five months.
Everyone wants happiness.
No one wants pain,
But you can’t have a rainbow
Without a little rain.”